On to the 3's

A very special event happened this past weekend, our little Rex had his 3rd Birthday party.  He is such a joy in our lives.  After a week of designing the perfect dump truck party, a whole day of making signs and different decorations, and a night up until midnight the night before making everything just right, I think he loved every bit of his party.  I have always loved designing my children's birthday parties, but it does take a lot of time.  The time I put into each and every one of the decorations displays a tiny glimpse of the love i hold in my heart.  I always hand make a shirt that displays their age to later make a blanket.  I love all three of my children more than anything in the entire world and making sure their birthdays are special is just one part to being a good mommy.  Rex has shown us more love since he has been born,  bringing our family closer and closer.  He keeps us laughing and on our toes constantly with his witty personality.   I can only imagine how this next year will be with his sweetness in the house.  Happy 3rd Birthday Rexy.  A big thank you to all the family who helped us celebrate this little love bundles birthday.  He was incredibly happy and appreciative of every gift.  We love you,

Mommy, Daddy, sissy and bubby love you more than life itself.  

Until the next birthday, 

I can do this

Today is going to be the first day where I will attempt to kick a habit that has followed me for almost twenty years.   I never started off this habit thinking it would last this long or even become a habit,  but when you are young and naive you don't see the long term effects of a one try thing.  So I am struggling with confidence right now because I feel like I am one with the addiction and it scares me to think I might fail.  I know for my husband and children this is a must for their health as well as mine.  I never thought something so small could have such a hold over my body.  I know through prayers and constantly asking God for guidance is the key.  So I will boldly ask God to step with me every single pace and guide me through the stressful times and around every temptation.   Not sure if this is a good time to quit with my husbands Papa just passing yesterday but he had an addiction that took over him and eventually cost him his life through health conflicts.  Now more than ever I see myself in that same hospital bed with my own children crying over me and asking me why I didn't quit.  I know I cannot turn back the damage I have already done to my body but I can start to live each and every day fresh.   I know this is a journey that will be achievable,  because I have determination in everything I do.  I just need to get past th psychological feelings of having to have this when I really don't need it.  One step at a time and I may fall short, but I will get myself back up, dust myself off and go again.  For my family, for me, for my future.

Day 1

KD